Rest - Spiritual Growth Encouragement Series

I answered a phone call from an unknown number and I somewhat felt hypnotized that I pledged to give a one time donation of $50. I received a letter from the organization’s CEO stating that I pledged to give $75. I haven’t sent the amount yet and I am uneasy.
Last week I supported a go-fund-me for a friend who was diagnosed of pancreatic cancer stage 4. And this week I gave funds to a missionary couple traveling to the Philippines to plant two new churches.
I am not at peace for not fulfilling my pledge.
Dear LORD God, what must I do? I ask You to carry my burden I pray. Amen 🙏🏽

I always have fear of people in my heart and I have no rest in my emotion and racing mind . I fear my parents will send me hospital to be hospitalized again ,where psychiatrist will bound you and lock you in a room and force you take medications. I fear people in my family and people in the church judge me and mock me and criticize me for my mental illness. I am living in great fear of my dad because he used to punish me and throw me out of the door when I was first grade. I do not know to deal with the fear in my deep heart toward my biological father?

Lord Jesus, this evening I come to You without any shame in my distress and anxiety, asking You to let me release all my burdens upon You in Your presence, because You love me dearly. Amen.

Grand daughter’ s parents

My living situation is not the best. I like in my son's old shop. They live in the other side. Their side is "fixed up" with card board for insulation & the rooms separated to make it warmer. My side is larger, the ceiling is higher & though the north wall has some insulation on it & a large bedspread tacked up separating that small north room from this large room, there is still a huge, cold draft blowing through. I have 5 electric heaters in here, but when it this cold & windy in here, you can't feel them unless you are right against them. I have to stay in bed, under all this cover to stay warm. The cats will lay on the floor in front of the heater & stay warm, which is good. I have no running water, my son has to get someone to take him to get water. I'm trying to be "content & as happy as I can be about my situation. But it does get trying & hard. Yet I keep praying & reading the Bible & asking for His help & intervention. I filled out an application for government housing over a year ago & returned it, but it wasn't complete & I had to bring it back & complete it, but my son said he'd take it back for me, but we don't have a way to go. When he'd find a ride he'd forget to take it & I finally brought it back in here & put it up. There's no way I can't afford anything without it being through the government, because it cost too much. So by not being able to turn it in, I guess I'm going to be here until the Lord is ready to for me to do better. I'm 70 years old & can't walk very well because of my knees & back. I don't have a way to go anywhere or any place to go. Most of my family that I was close to are dead. But I'm trying not to give up hope. I'm still trusting in God to help me, but I would appreciate any & all prayers you can pray on our behalf. Please pray for us & please pray that I keep praying & clinging to God, I don't ever want to give up hope.