Living with Heaven in View - Win the Day

Joey, my Friend and Brother in Christ!!!! I've missed you!!!! I know it's been ME whose been (absent)... I'm just struggling so much with some Catholic Things... and just life.

I've sort of slipped into a Depression... and I'm WORKING REALLY HARD ON GETTING OUT OF IT.

Like it's a "scary kind" of Depression. *meaning...*I'm Not Suicidal*.... but I just want to be in Heaven.

Honestly I'm so envious of people that are so happy here in earth. I WISH I was... I'm just not.

My work life, believe it or not, is still so unsettled. I don't see it changing. Well it changes all the time............but it's NOT the job I had for the last 16 years. I'm lost. I'm sad. I'm depressed.

I try so hard to just let Jesus (Guide my Day).. think positive thoughts........ I'm not that good at it. Lol.

I do feel like I'm at some (turning point)... like I have to either accept that things will not go back to the way they were..... and just DEAL.. or??? Lose myself in a total mental crisis.

I know you have seen or not seen me here.... I miss it. So many days I've tried so hard...I just couldn't "do it".

I guess in also feel (weird) being Catholic. See the things I find comforting are probably considered ?????? Legalism... and the things I Fear...... I'm not comfortable to share with everyone.

I'm not sure how many people read replies... but I've been saying The Rosary once a day....... (brings me great comfort)

I was almost at the point of being institutionalized when someone jokingly brought up Purgatory...(it's a Catholic thing). I'm still struggling over that one..... see I forgot. Or I don't know. I know i can't deal.

I, my beloved friend need to stop, or else my head will trash he me into dark dark dark places.... and one day I fear I shall never come out.

Peace and love be with you my friend.
Carolyn 💕🤗🙏😇💕🙏🤗😇